FEADE 64

Chapter 64

Translated and edited by KitKat

Ling Qing reached out without hesitation for a piece, “Here”.

Yu Chen took it into his and without putting it in his mouth, he reached towards Ling Qing and kissed his cheek, “Thanks baby”.

Ling Qing was also very cooperative, “As long as you like it”.

Ling Bai：……The piece of grapefruit in his hand instantly lost its flavour!

Ling Bai snorted, pulled off the skin from his piece of grapefruit and ate it angrily.

While this exchange took place, Mother and Father Ling looked at each other with only one expression in their eyes: How come you two are so in love now?

Mother Ling still remembered the time when she had gone to Yu Chen to ask him why he was backing out now when he had said yes at the time the news had been released to the press. When she had asked him whether he was playing tricks on the Ling family because the marriage partner had been Ling Qing, Yu Chen had reluctantly agreed to get married.

At that time, “Ling Qing” had stood by, watching with aggrieved resentment saying, “You’ve agreed.”

Ling Bai had sat on the sofa with a sneer, asking Yu Chen, “Yes, don’t you want to be with me?”

‌Yu Chen hadn’t spared a glance at “Ling Qing”, only looking at Ling Bai, saying, “Yes, I agree. I am willing to get married.”

Ling Bai was so incensed that he had clenched his fists and grit his teeth, all the while shouting at Yu Chen, “That’s great then! You better not regret it!”

“Don’t worry, I’ll never regret it.” After saying that, Yu Chen had directly left.

Now, coming back to the present….

Yu Chen spared no glance at nor cared about Ling Bai, only having his sights on Ling Qing.

Mother Ling turned to look at her youngest son and was surprised to find out that he had also been staring at her eldest son!

Whatever had happened to his infatuation with “Brother Chen” that he doesn’t seem to care about him anymore now?

Just look at what he was doing!

Mother Ling felt that she couldn’t understand the current situation at all and Father Ling opened his mouth just in time, “Xiao Qing, Xiao Yu, have you both eaten? What do you want to eat?”

Ling Qing and Yu Chen had picked the perfect time to drop by the Ling’s house. It wasn’t too early and they had deliberately missed lunch, intending to stay at the Ling house a little while longer.

It was just after 3pm and there was still sometime before dinner. Ling Qing estimated that they wouldn’t be able to leave for a while so he replied, “We’ve already had lunch. If it’s time for dinner, we’ll just have some stir-fry.”

“Okay. What do you and Xiao Yu want to eat?”

Ling Qing gave the names of the dishes he wanted and his mother noted them all down to be sent to the aunt who was in charge of cooking.

After chatting politely for a while, Mother Ling found an excuse to let Ling Qing go upstairs with her to her bedroom.

“What’s the matter?” asked Ling Qing.

Mother Ling patted the small sofa next to her, motioning for him to take a seat.

Ling Qing went over and sat down, wondering what she wanted to tell him.

“Why did you become an actor all of a sudden? Being an actor means you have to travel a lot and now that you are finally with Yu Chen, you should seize this opportunity to stay by his side. It’s fine if you don’t want to be his assistant but why be an actor?”

Mother Ling found it incomprehensible as she looked at him and asked, “What do you think?”

“Why should I be an assistant? Why can’t I have a career?” Ling Qing retorted.

“If you want to have a career, how can you guarantee to keep Yu Chen?” said Mother Ling. “You do know how you got married to him in the first place, don’t you?”

“What kind of family the Yu Family is, don’t you know? It is a position that our family cannot climb up to in this lifetime so naturally you have to hold onto him tightly when you have got the chance. Aren’t you afraid that Yu Chen might dislike your career in future? Don’t you think that he might divorce you over it?”

Ling Qing gave a laugh and said, “So you want me to give up my career just to hold Yu Chen’s thighs like a dodder flower? Do you think that is appropriate?”

“What’s not appropriate about that? If it wasn’t for your own good, would I have to say all this to you?” Mother Ling was exasperated that Ling Qing was simply ignorant, unwilling to understand her painstaking efforts!

“How much is your career worth? You’re with Yu Chen now. You wouldn’t have to worry about your livelihood for the rest of your life!”

“A woman can have a baby and keep the husband tied to the family but what about you? You’re a man and you can’t have a child. How would Yu Chen feel about that down the line? You don’t even have any insurance to keep him tied to you, yet you still want to be an actor! You really cannot distinguish what is at stake here!” Mother Ling expressed her concerns.

Ling Qing looked at her and felt that he could see a glimpse of his parents from his past life. For them, a child wasn’t an independent individual with thoughts and needs, needing to be respected. He had just been a means to achieve their goals.

 His father had said to him, “I didn’t want your mother to give birth to you but she did it in spite of that, so naturally, you should follow your mother.”

His mother had then said to him, “You’re talking as though I had the child through mitosis. You don’t want the child now so why didn’t you let me get it aborted at that time? The surname is Ling so he should naturally follow you!”

Ling Qing had stood by silently, listening to their arguments.

When they were in love, they only spoke sweetly to each other and when they had divorced, they always ended up in fights.

Ling Qing hadn’t understood; why neither of his parents had loved him and why it had all ended up like this.

　

It has gotten out of hand now.

He had bent down to pick up the pen that he had dropped but hadn’t gotten up until he had silently wiped away all his tears.

“Then did you just give birth to me and Ling Bai to maintain a secure relationship with dad?” Ling Qing questioned Mother Ling.

“Why should I use a child to keep Yu Chen? Can a broken family be saved? Of course not. It is the elders who should save it, not the child! What has the child done wrong? Why must it bear the responsibility of holding the family together? If you can’t keep what you want, then let go. If you can’t keep the person of their own free will, it’s useless to force it.”

“What I do and where I go is all up to me. It is my freedom to live the life I want and there is no way to stop me or interfere with it. If Yu Chen likes me, we’ll be considerate of each other and live happily. If not, if he says that he doesn’t like me and wants to get a divorce, I won’t stop him either.”

“It is irresponsible to give birth to a child when there is no harmony between the parents. What has the child done wrong and why should it fall on the child’s shoulders to maintain a broken relationship? It is ridiculous that you think a child will solve all the problems in a relationship.”

Ling Qing stood up, raised his eyes slightly and said, “Perhaps what you said makes sense to some but it doesn’t work for me. I don’t need you to worry about the matter between Yu Chen and I.”

“I’m doing it for your own good!” Mother Ling said angrily. “Why don’t I just go and tell him? I’m no longer afraid that you’ll suffer!”

Ling Qing smiled and said, “Thank you.”

After speaking, he opened the door and walked out.

Mother Ling patted the coffee table angrily, frowning depressedly.

“Did you and mom just have an argument?”

Ling Qing was just about to head downstairs when he  suddenly saw a small head poking out not far away.

Ling Qing：……Are you afraid that others will not know that you’ve just eavesdropped? You were obviously hidden so why are you blowing your cover now?

“Come here”, said Ling Qing.

Ling Bai quickly moved out from behind the wall and walked over.

“Eavesdropping on our conversation? Who gave you the courage?” Ling Qing questioned him.

Ling Bai looked over the railing innocently and asked, “Can’t I be curious?”

“You eavesdrop because you’re curious?”

“I was afraid that you’ll quarrel with mom.” Ling Bai’s voice was weak. “I have to leave and can’t stay here anymore so I wanted to help you persuade mom before I left.”

“You and mom used to quarrel a lot and Shu Tong doesn’t know mom’s temper so I wanted to help you by talking to her.”

Ling Qing didn’t expect that he still had such thoughts, “It’s rare that you are still so sensible.”

Ling Bai looked at him with a dissatisfied look，“You see me as an old love now，just hear the new news and laugh and not even care about the old crying! I’m here for you now. I don’t mean to be stupid, annoying or ignorant.”

Ling Qing：……Although it was straight to the point, there was a certain subtlety in his tone.

Ling Qing acquiesced and did not refute. Ling Bai was surprised, “You really only see me like that!!! You only love the new now and dislike the old! Did you ever really love me?”

Ling Bai was very sceptical, Ling Bai didn’t feel so！

Ling Qing stroked the little dog’s head, “I loved you, I loved you. But you also know old love, it’s not always so valuable.”

Ling Bai snorted and was very angry.

Ling Qing smiled and said, “You don’t have to be worried about me and you don’t need to persuade mom. She has already lived up to half of her life. She won’t listen to you if you persuade her. She will only think that you are ignorant who doesn’t understand her good intentions. Wait a little longer. I will show her that everyone has the right to choose their own path and what she thinks is correct might necessarily not be true.”

Ling Bai nodded and asked again if Ling Qing didn’t need his help in persuading their mother.

Ling Qing patted his head and said, “I still need your help. Where is your sister-in-law? I’ll go look for him.”

Ling Bai：！！！

Listen to him talking like he’s not the sister-in-law himself!

Look at how he treats his new love compared to his old love! Ling Qing has no heart!

“You go and find him yourself, scumbag!” Ling Bai was so angry that he turned around to leave.

Ling Qing grabbed him by the collar, “What did you just call me?”

Ling Bai struggled a few times but couldn’t break free so he aggrievedly called out, “Brother”.

“Where is your sister-in-law?”

“In your room”, Ling Bai was reluctant.

Ling Qing let him go and warned, “If you dare to speak ill of me again, I won’t care about you from now on. I’ll just let Shu Tong call me brother.”

Ling Bai was shocked, “Are you still a man?”

Ling Qing pinched his face and said, “Does a scum man count? Did you not just say that I was a scumbag?”

Ling Bai：……

Ling Bai fell down like a little white lotus after the rain and wind, distraught.

After Ling Qing destroyed his brother’s flowery mind, his mood improved a lot and he happily walked towards his room.

Ling Bai was left alone and sighed, looked up and happened to see Mother Ling standing outside her room for who knew how long.

Ling Bai didn’t know how much she had heard but was sure that his voice had been soft so she probably couldn’t have heard them.

Ling Bai meekly walked towards her and asked, “Mom did you hear that just now?”

Mother Ling took a look and nodded.

Ling Bai looked at her calm face and thought to himself, “Why didn’t she talk about what she had heard? He wanted to hear her opinions!”

Mother Ling didn’t speak so he could only comfort her, “Did you and big brother argue just now? He didn’t mean to quarrel with you. It is just that he has his own intentions and the things he wants to do.”

Mother Ling smiled and reassured him, “Can I not know? There are two paths on the road one travels and every mother wishes for her child to take the easy route. Isn’t it good to make money lying down? Why do you have to fight for yourself? Maybe it’ll all be in vain later.”

“But if we all live in the same way, what’s the point of living our lives? Isn’t it just to copy and paste what others are doing? We have to go out on our own to try and make our own destinies.”

“It really surprises me that you’re saying such things now. But…”

She looked at Ling Bai suspiciously, “What’s the matter with you today? Haven’t you always had a bad relationship with your brother? Why are you helping him explain himself?”

“Did I? I don’t want to be like that anymore. I am afraid that you will be unhappy.” Ling Bai, then, sincerely said, “I hope you are always happy.”

Even after I am gone.

……

Ling Qing found his room following the memory of the original owner and when he pushed open the doors, he saw Yu Chen lying on the big bed, seemingly asleep.

He walked closer and whispered to Yu Chen, “Are you asleep?” Not wishing to disturb his rest, Ling Qing turned around to leave.

As soon as he turned his back, he was grabbed from behind, right into Yu Chen’s arms and directly carried onto the bed.

Ling Qing couldn’t help but smile, “You’re still pretending to be asleep?”

“Is the acting very realistic?” asked Yu Chen.

Ling Qing laughed, “Just because I trust you, I didn’t look too closely. Otherwise, how could you have fooled me?”

“That also shows that my acting skills aren’t that bad ” ,Yu Chen said cheekily.

Ling Qing squeezed his face, “You’re really thick-skinned!”

“What did your mother tell you?” asked Yu Chen.

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The author has something to say：

Ling Qing：Told me to have a baby

Yu Chen：I get it. I will work hard!

Ling Qing：……You don’t have to work so hard, it’s okay :’)